Attack of the Chocolate Easter Bunny

Sharing my journey with people has been a huge challenge for me, talking about it with family is one thing but to be so open to complete strangers, work colleagues and Internet surfers is a little daunting.   I have always been taught that people don't want to hear all about 'you' all the time, and since this blog is all about me well you see where I am going with this.  This has been a process I have to slowly get through, as the more people I tell the more I feel I can't quit.  I don't want people to look at me and say to themselves 'well she hasn't really lost any weight!'  To think this way is so frustrating, as I am meant to be doing this for myself and no one else.  Why do we seek approval for the things we do in life? 

 

Returning to work and sharing my journey with colleagues is difficult, as I am the manager on duty and as much as I want to relate to my staff, I do need a certain degree of separation.  Finding this balance can be a challenge, and earning the respect of people at work is important.  I feel that I am fair, and thank the staff for their efforts constantly.  It has been recently that I have found my willingness to come forward and share my journey is great success.  Not only do I have their support, but am thankful for their efforts.

 

Working in any supermarket has its challenges but the biggest one of all for me is EASTER!  I am responsible for the Easter displays and point of sale, so this week I have been handling that much chocolate it not funny.  Really its not funny!  Opening box after box, pallet after pallet, picking each individual chocolate bunny up and placing it on the shelf on display.  Opening each box is like Augustus Gloop diving into the chocolate lake!  I'm suffocated by the sweet smell, while temptation is whispering in one ear and Michelle Bridges is yelling in the other.  Time after time I pick up that chocolate bunny that's broken and put it aside in a box.  When the job is all done and those bunnies are standing up straight like solders ready to attack, I am craving them and just want to break a little bunny head off!!! 

 

 

So now I have this box of broken chocolate not fit for sale, and I reward my staff for their efforts and give it out to them.  Mostly all broken and in pieces I can't tell you how many times a wanted to pick up the small pieces and eat it.  So hear I am walking around the store and EVERYONE is eating chocolate! ARGH!!! Finally Michelles' shout became a whisper and I picked up a piece, just one small piece.  I could hear myself saying this is going to make you feel sick, all the while my hand moving towards my gob.  It was like a dream in slow motion, then I heard the words.

 

"Don't do it ...... You don't want it ......... It's disgusting ......... Don't do it!"

 

It was like a gun went off and I woke up!  Looking over at my ever so supportive staff I put it down and said " You're right I don't want it"  and walked away.  Then I heard the most encouraging words of all "Well done the self control"  It was like I was in a stadium with a huge crowd clapping just for me.  I had done it I defeated the attack of the horrid chocolate Easter bunny, with the help of my colleagues. 

 

The realisation that Easter is not around the corner, and that I have to do this 5 nights a week is well ...... depressing!  I do not have these temptations at home but at work they are everywhere.  Not just the chocolate, but EVERYTHING!  You name it ........

 

chocolate

lollies

chips

soft drinks

pastry's

cakes

 

ice cream

iced coffee  

donuts 

pizza 

danish 

speciality breads 

croissant's

candy bars

sweets

 

 

 

 

 

You name it and it's there at my finger tips, ready and waiting. (quietly chuckling to myself) I thought my biggest worry was going to be lack of sleep. HA! So far I have fought off the nastiness, as I have all these at my disposal I also have some of the freshest produce too. So ts a choice isn't it? A choice is what I have, its all I have when you really think about it. Break it down to

one

                                single

                                               choice!

That's all I have to do ....... we shall see :)