The most amazing thing about this new lifestyle is the change I am seeing in my family. My daughter is looking healthier and her hair is so shiny and gorgeous! My partner is also loosing weight and our communication has improved. My sons well the 4 year old he doesn't really go much on the food at all, I don't think he has had a decent dinner for weeks. He just refuses to eat it little bugger if its not meat he wont eat! Then there is my ray of hope little baby boy, he has had a taste of everything so far, I can only hope his pallet is expanding further than meat.
This morning I realised a very important and most horrible fact, that to date never occurred to me as an issue. However this really is terrible and it saddens me to admit it, because I would like to say that I am the type of mother that exposes her children to the elements. I am all for outdoors, art and crafts and active play. My children choose to play outside which I love.
Fact No. 1
My 8 month old baby boy has never touched grass!
Mixing it up this morning I met a newly found friend at the park for some boxing and exercises. In my usual fashion I was late, so I arrived to find this incredibly focused woman utilising the benches with step ups. This lady has been my partner in Fitbox classes, it is great to have someone so focused and inspirational. So today in my favourite park with the grass hills, you know the ones - the hills I ran up a while back thinking they looked impossible. Yeah well now I run up and down them and I love it! Being late and all my partner had to leave, so I continued on finishing my hour. My son was playing on a picnic blanket with his toys in the shade having a ball. I joined him in the shade and started skipping.
Have any of you ever skipped before? It is the best exercise I have started for myself, I have been running but find it hard on my knees since I am 100kg. Skipping is the go, give it a try.
So there I was skipping away and my son started to crawl towards me, he placed one hand down on the grass and whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Oh man it was like someone had stuck him with a hot poker, he lifted his hand looked at it, looked at me and tried again. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Oh poor bubba it had dawned on me that the poor kid had never been on the grass. Oh dear what have I done, Ive kept this kid locked away. He was not happy at all. Then I saw it, the thing I have been nurturing inside me for some time now, the thing that keeps me going DETERMINATION. He cried and crawled over the grass to me, I could see that every time his hand or his foot felt that grass that he was frustrated. I got down on my hand and knees and praised him for his efforts. WELL DONE.
Fact No. 2
I NEVER went outside myself, little lone played on grass with my kids while being overweight.
How have I become this person? I grew up in the country, played lots of sport, outdoors all the time. I love camping, fishing, hiking. What went so wrong? Did I stop all of this because I am overweight? Its so much more than just being overweight or should I say obese! No one likes to think they are mentally screwed up, but I am here to admit it. Yes its a negative thought process, feeling crapy and unworthy. So everything else follows, the self sabotage, emotional eating, depression.
I quit smoking 5 years ago now, and its the best thing I have ever done for myself. Do you want to know the next best thing I have done for myself lately?
EXERCISE!
While enjoying some down time today I read this;
You must first have a good relationship with yourself
before you can have a good relationship with others.
You will never find YOUR happiness
anywhere but within yourself.
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