Now My Gym Clothes Just Stink!

Now I am going to back track a bit. When I actually conceived the thought of exercise, and it was a tiny seed at this stage, I honestly didn't have anything to wear. I remember going on my first walk in a pair of shorts and top I was so uncomfortable. This wasn't going to work so off I went shopping. Now I love shopping what woman doesn't? But this time I was out of my comfort zone and shopping in uncharted waters. What do I buy? Ahh the faithful sale racks and to my surprise the first item I put my hand on was size 20 score!! Yes there was all my sizes alright! So I bought myself the appropriate attire, I was ready. Wrong!

Dear me the pants I chose rode up the inside of my legs so high, I was worried everyone could see well everything. The tops were not long enough to cover my belly and they showed all my lumps and bumps. Come on aren't I meant to feel good about what I'm doing? I looked ridiculous!

So off I went shopping again.

I had to get them, you know the ones, the tight stain looking gym pants. I cringed at the thought of wearing these, but the chaffing I had on my thighs screamed at me to buy them. Plus I found some extra long singlets to go under the shirts, in some nice bright colours. I've done it.

So going out in my new smokn' hot gym gear ...... Ummmm yeah. Oh no how am I going to go out in this? Thank god I joined curves and not the gym with the muscle. These clothes were so tight I was confronted with my bulging belly and wobbly bits. I developed this workout style where I just looked down at the ground. I couldn't even look up I was so embarrassed about the way I looked.

No one told me that gym clothes would be so addictive. I wanted to buy more even though I looked terrible. This was unknown to me why did I want to buy more? I was starting to feel the pressure to look a certain way. It's crazy really I wanted to look good, and was prepared to go on a spending spree! It's wasn't the shopping, buying more clothes, that was going to do this. What was I thinking?

It's been 5 weeks now and I'm still wearing the same clothes. I didn't go shopping and buy more, I would like to say I came to my senses, but really I had no money! I look fat because I am fat! I spent so many years telling myself I'm not fat, when I looked at my reflection I was shocked! So do these gym clothes make me look fat? Yes, and I can't wait for the day they are too big.

Start of my journey weighing 160.9kg

 

 

Lost 4.9kg to date

 

So this I entry I wrote weeks ago now, it has been a page in this blog.  At the time I thought it warranted a page but am now making it into a post.  Just to show what progress I have made I have the exact same clothes on in the pictures.  What a difference, unbelievable!