PROCRASTINATOR!

I wasn't sure if I should have signed up for round two or not, I thought I had it all under control hahaha so wrong I needed to sign up again. I mean come on Caley, yes I'm going to talk to myself now ....... You need to educate yourself in order to succeed.

There I said it, I thought I ate healthy and in some ways I did, but I had no idea what a balanced meal was and thanks to this program I am starting to get it. Lets hope... Ten years of yoyo dieting and breaking bad habits is hard. I am so happy that I can filter this new found commitment and nutrition to my children especially my daughter Jasohta.

I recently injured myself  the muscle behind my knee decided to grab, and I was down for the count. Nothing serious just strained, but the best thing about this was I stretched today with my daughter, who was actively involved and generally wanted to know what I was doing. This turned into a stretching  session together which I thoroughly enjoyed. Jasohta practises karate and know some of the stretches already, she shows me the stretches she knows and I her. Jasohta asked me how I injured myself, when I told her it was doing burpees she thought that was pretty funny until I told her what a burpees actually was. She did about 10 of them.

Having this program to follow and organising my nutrition takes all the stress out of my weight issues.  You know I used to look in the mirror and I was in so much denial I didn't see a fat person, for the first time in a long while I haven't the rose coloured glasses on and can see my body for what it is. OVERWEIGHT! I have seen so many changes in my body shape it's amazing, not to mention the muscle tone. My work shirts are starting to look like square tents and I have had to buy two smaller sized pants, with a shopping trip coming soon because the ones I'm wearing now are baggy. I should be so proud and happy but why am I looking at myself like I'm just so fat?

So it's Tuesday night now and I haven't done any exercise since Saturday. I bought myself some anti-flemme cream, which I might add is awesome. I put it on every bit of my body that was sore and I had the best nights sleep in a long while. Having rested my broken spent body I'm now ready for training in the morning.

It seems this post is continuing over a few days as its now Thursday, and yes I went to the gym.  I have an extremely sore lower back and just wanted to walk out of my class 20 minutes into it.  Thanks to my PT Bec I didn't, she continually pushes me beyond my limits each week.  She is an awesome instructor.  She picked up that my head space was not right, I didn't even have to say anything, she could see it in my face.  I always wonder if I'm pushing myself too hard, where is my limit?  Challenging myself day after day and being consistent is what I am to do to see the results right? 


So funny to read this and the fact that I didn't publish this and its called "procrastinator" ha just makes me laugh.  Enjoy

Having An Affair With Jim!

So its been nearly six months since I decided to change my lifestyle, and I can honestly say it hasn't gotten any easier.  As far as the my level of fitness is concerned there is always harder routines, and heavier weights to counterbalance my advances.  In actual fact it's harder now more than ever to do what I have been doing.  At first it was just starting, now its just finishing!

My self esteem levels have improved so much so that I now have a hair style, and actually take time to do my hair.  Where as before it was throw it up however, and I wouldn't even put a brush to it.  I have dyed my hair which compliments my eye colour, and I wear makeup to make my best features shine.  I can actually say I'm starting to care about myself and love my body for what it is, be proud of the way I present myself.  It must show in my face too, because people are actually smiling back at me.  I'm smiling from the inside for the first time in my life.

Family life has been great, everyone is happier and healthier.  It was so great today to go see my children participate in the school sports carnival.  In previous years my daughter didn't want to go but this year she was keen.  It's such a good thing to see her so happy in school, we have had our fair share of finding the right school for her.  Today she excelled and ran third in her race, what a champion.  My son ran his race we found out today that he runs sideways, but that OK great effort for a little pre-schooler.  I couldn't have been prouder.

It was so hot and shade was in short supply so I went home and got my canopy for the ladies volunteering for the BBQ fundraiser.  When it came time to pack up they offered to take it to my car, I said no I'm walking today thanks.  Their jaws dropped and said, "but how are you going to get this home?"  Same way I got it here we walked.  "What do you do boot camp or something?" said one of the ladies laughing.  "Yes I do" I replied.  I said thanks for packing it up and off I walked with the canopy in tow and two kids up over the hill and off home.

Now I thought that this was a completely normal thing to do.  It hadn't occurred to me until now that the tent weighs 24kg, and those women think I'm nuts!  I could do it easy, six months ago maybe not. I came home had a drink and followed with a circuit workout in my back yard.  It was the perfect time I had just warmed up carrying the tent home.  I am proud to say I can setup a training circuit for myself now.

I have this new saying  "Earn your rest" people talk about motivation, and what inspires them to train.  I have nothing except this phrase and it works for me.  I spend the majority of my days training in the gym, and work at night.  I don't really spend that much time with my partner, we are the tag team.  He gets home from work on a weekday, I go to work and on weekends we have the days together unless I decide to go to the gym.  Which has been the case lately because I have my rest days during the week when I have days of work.  So Rod talks about Gym alot and the fact I see Gym more than him.  Now Jim has become humanised and we talk about my affair with Jim.  I've told him that he too can share Jim but Rod just isn't into that kind of thing.  So for now I have Jim all to myself.  This week being all about new phrases I have a new one "Gettin' sweaty with Jim" ..... "Yeah Caley's off gettin' sweaty with Jim" My affair with Jim has spread far and wide, and Rod's family must be getting concerned!  We think its pretty funny, wait until Rod meets my personal trainer ... Jim!  haha (jokes peoples) calm down ..........